that awkward moment when you don’t know what the fuck to do.
summer is over
you still like the same guy you shouldnt
you get jealous easily
you have someone who likes you but you dont know if it’s right for him to.
I don’t know what to do again. it’s getting a bit to much if I am honest/.
I am starting my new job where my life will be over with all the hours I will be doing
I still am penniless
I dont know how to handle my life.
I want summer back and be pissed and everything
where I had the most amazing weekends with someone
I want to be back in Bristol and fall for it all over again
I want what I want not what someone else forces me to have
Im a bit to scared at the moment to do anything thats new as i have taken on to mmuch new stuff recently/
I need you now I need your touch And your lips I need that smile And your kiss You’re so cool You’re so beautiful You’re so You’re so
Just how i feel right now to be honest about someone :( x
14.June.2011
I know it has been ages since my last post.
Well I have recently came to realise that any day now reality will hit me soon.
I don’t know how to react to it if I am honest.
I am scared shitless. Growing up from the partying and meeting new people. I am scared to loose all this and become a old lady that will be sat around in nights just doing nothing much really.
I am also so scared to fall in “love” if I have to be honest.
Being hurt comes along with this. I have taken a vow to love the next man I am with however the same vow said that this will not happen for months or even years to come and here I am falling for some man I should’nt and the more I think of it I want to be with him. :(
oh well the happy thing in my life ironically is being able to go out and get out my face and see my mates.
Also this guy I like is making me very very happy.
The thing that is making me very upset/angry is the labels people give people. you have more than one relationship with people in a short space of time a slag you flirt or kiss a guy a slut.
Oh well I think I have rambled on a little bit if I am honest.
xx
Day one:25.3.11
Well what can I say as a starter to me, not sure what I am going to use this as, a few things has occurred to me.
A way to get rid of the stress by posting it online for the world to see, however everyone does that these days and its getting a bit dull.
Then I thought a place to share the little things in life that make you feel that bit better.
So I have decided to do both of these. :)
Angry: Well the goverment is my biggest piss off tbh.
The way they treat people in this day and age is discusting.
Happiness: The good weather.
the second the sun commes out thats it everyone is happy.
p.s I will put a fact about me here everyday.
I’m a care assistant.